Imm in love with my best guy friend , but I won't admit it to myself because I don't want to ruin our wonderful friendship ..
hm, is he single? does he act flirty towards you? or is there any signs that he might have feelings for you? if he flirts with you, flirt back and keep it up, see where that goes OR try to get flirty and joke around with him, and see how he reacts, do it little by little. i know you don’t want to ruin your friendship but you never know what can come out of it and doing that shouldn’t ruin it :)